You don’t have to be great to start

That’s what they say, isn’t it?

“You don’t have to be great to start, but you have to start to be great”.

So here I am, starting. Although this time, after all the goals I’ve set myself, all the things I have achieved, created and manifested in my life, being great at something is no longer at the top of my list of things to do.

Enjoying something, falling in love with the things I had forgotten, living slower than before and taking deep, beautiful breaths along the way… that’s the goal now.

And I’m starting without much of a vision at all, just a deep knowing that if I don’t do this now, perhaps I never will.

It comes after months of fertility treatment, where not only was my body pushed to it’s limits, but my mind was too, and I could no longer girlboss my way through, I couldn’t keep pushing for a business that didn’t feel like it had any meaning any more.

And I kept coming back to the dreams I always had for my life, and I’m transported back to being 13 years old, right before I let the world influence me, before I hid behind false confidence, before I was taught to feel ashamed of all the things I loved and adopted all the sh*t I thought was “cool”. Before I learned how to mask.

Those things were art, painting, sculpting, building, creating.

Those things were baking, cooking, developing new recipes and learning old school ones from my Mum and Grandma.

Those things were friends and family and living my life.

And I want them back.

So I started baking my own sourdough bread and fell in love with it.

I start drawing, that led to painting, that let to sculptured and textured art.

I stopped forcing myself to work for money and instead chose to breath and ask myself “what comes next?”

And here I am.

Sitting right at the door of “Next”.

I don’t know what’s on the other side, but I’m pretty sure it looks like my 13 year old self, rediscovering everything I loved, unlearning all the ways I was taught not to love them (or myself) and sharing it here, with you all.

Welcome to Lattes & Lisanne.

A journey of self discovery through art, creation and all the things I find joy and love in.

I’m so happy you’re here and would be so honoured if you stick around for the journey.

Be sure to say hello on Instagram (I just started a brand new page and am currently friendless!) @lattesandlisanne

Sleep well, Dream High

Ashlie xx